Author: Kay (secret_smile19)
Rating: PG-13 I guess, but there is one curse word...
Notes: This is a monologue type thing about Sasuke basically...um and this is x-posted over at ff.net.
You are an avenger. You are not supposed to smile. You are not supposed to laugh. You are not show emotion. You are supposed to be all scowls and glares and icy anger. That’s what had kept all those fangirls away from you. If they had ever seen you smile or laugh, they just might attack you like rabid dogs.
You are not supposed to smile. You hadn’t smiled (a true smile) since you were eight… well, except for the time on the way to Wave Country and Naruto had froze in the middle of a fight or that time during the Chunin exams when Orochimaru’s seal had been starting to take affect and he had broke that guy’s arms…but you realize that a lot of time has passed since then, and a lot of things have changed.
That doesn’t mean, though, you should smile when you see bright blue eyes stare into your own or when a large grin crinkles said eyes into slits and the whiskers on the tan cheeks that bunch together. It doesn’t mean you should smile when He’s surprisingly quiet and lays his head on your shoulder or when He allows you to run your fingers through his golden locks without him making a big fuss about it.
You are not supposed to laugh. You try not to, at least. But sometimes you can’t help it. He is such an idiot sometimes that you can’t help but laugh.
You are not supposed to show emotion. You are supposed to be indifferent and cold. He’s the only one that can get a reaction out of you. Well, except for your idiot of a sensei, but that’s only because the jounin gets a kick out of irritating the hell out of you…and that man, but you’re supposed to be hateful for what he had done. That man is the reason why you’re an avenger.
…Sometimes it’s hard to remember that. Hard to remember you’re an avenger, that is. You remember your family and your sadness, but you have to try to cling to your anger and hatred when He’s around. He shines like the fucking sun and chases all the shadows away.
But when you kiss him and He smiles and, for a moment, you’re allowed to let the hate and anger go, allowed to let him chase the shadows away, allowed to forget you’re an avenger…it feels like you could create a million Chidoris without feeling any pain. Like you could take on the Akatsuki, Orochimaru, and all of Sound a hundred times over and survive. Like…like you could do anything.
So you let that feeling simmer beneath the hate and anger you cling to and know that it’ll help you achieve your goal- defeating that man. Cause once you’re done with that, you'll be allowed to just keep getting stronger while loving Him.
And here's the other story...
Pairing: Sasuke/Naruto, one-sided Sakura/Sasuke
Notes: This is just two chapters and these links go to ff.net (which this is x-posted to.
Disclaimer: I don't any of these characters.